A Journey for life
by Leandro D. Nueva Cruzada
(Toronto, Ontario, Canada)
A journey always start with one step.
I am raised from a very Catholic country, the Philippines. My parents are devout Catholics. They enrolled us to private Catholic schools, encouraged to join christian groups and taught us to value Catholic Christianity more than anything else.
Since I was little, my mother discussed the value of Catholicism in our family, culture and identity. However, as I grew older, I felt a sense of detachment from my religion. The doubt to believe is increasing. There are several teachings in the Roman Catholic faith I don’t agree on. It is the same feeling for all Abrahamic religions (Judaism, Christianity, Islam and Baha’i).
When we emigrated to Canada, I began reading more on my religion, its sects as well as other known faiths. As I turn and finish reading books, I felt dissatisfied. There’s an overwhelming sense of anxiety after I read Islam. Then, I looked and seek Buddhism upon reading some texts. I felt this connection. I have the excitement and eagerness to learn more. Furthermore, I somehow felt at peace and started to apply the basic things I know from Buddhism to my everyday life.
I felt great! Unfortunately, I can only keep this for myself. I love my mother and I know for a fact she’ll be upset when I tell this to her. I haven’t converted yet. However, I need to study more and set an example so the people around me cannot just say that Buddhism brainwashed me.